“Strive for progress, not perfection.” -Unknown
I think I’m done losing weight. I’ve been within 5 pounds for a year, and have not been able to get below 150. That is certainly a very nice number for a person who is almost 5’8” tall (me), so I’m very pleased with it.
But I’d had 145 as a goal for so long, stopping at 150 feels like quitting. Like giving up. There was no reason behind 145, really, I just liked the sound of it. Here’s why I don’t think I’m giving up:
What I want for my body is not weight-related anymore. I do not feel heavy. I am not overweight. What I want is a fit body. A body that will do what I ask during a race. A body that is feminine, but strong. Losing more weight will not make the Jell-O baby tummy and inner thighs tighten up. I hear that lifting weights will, though.
So, I’m done losing, I guess.
I’ve recently learned/figured out that I need to tone now. I learned this when I read this article on losing those last pounds at Go Kaleo and this article on calories. And then I confirmed with my friend Jess (Blonde Ponytail), an expert on matters of fitness!
So, I need to lift weight (whether they are the metal ones in the gym or my own body weight), to strengthen my body overall. Then, it will use the fat stores in my tummy and thighs to fuel my new, more muscular physique.
At least, this is what I’m hoping will happen.
But, I admit, I am scared. Like freaking out. To do this toning thing, I am supposed to eat more calories (and even more protein!). I’ve been eating about 1,300 calories for so long that I’m worried I’ve ruined my metabolism. Can it be fixed? I don’t know.
I am so, so afraid of gaining weight. Like it’s just going to magically pack itself on me. I’ve been working at this too long.
So, I’m still haven’t been eating enough because of this fear. I’ve only bumped my calories up to 1,500. I should be eating 2,000 at least, and AND…this calorie calculator is putting me at anywhere between 2,400-2,900 on work days (depending on my level of activity that day) when I’m mostly sitting! How in the world am I going to eat that much?
Right now – eating 1,500 calories for the second week – I just feel like I’m gaining weight all the time, and have not weighed myself because of this. Admittedly, my clothes do not feel any tighter. I just feel so full at mealtimes, though, and my brain equates fullness to gaining weight. How can I fix this? More frequent smaller meals? I already eat five times a day!
How long and how often should I be doing weights and strength work? Every day? I know I can’t do the same muscle groups every day. I need a plan. Help!
While I may be finished losing the weight, I’m not done reaching my goal of a fit body. I was not prepared for this. I did not realize that getting down to my weight goal was not the end of the process! I didn’t know finally reaching my goal was going to be so hard!