Thanks so much for all of your comments on my last post. I decided to not run the full marathon on June 6. And I’m completely okay with that. At peace with the decision.
Thursday night, I was not. I moped. I sulked. I wept. I didn’t even want to eat dinner. Now, that’s strange. But as the evening grew darker, something surprising happened.
I began to feel lighter. Like a weight was lifted off of me. It completely shocked me. Why was I feeling relief about missing out on my dream by only a few weeks?
But I figured it out the next day. My calves are strained and I have shin splints, and one leg longer than the other (which, by the way, Mr. T reminded me that the chiropractor had, in fact, told me this last summer). Certainly, all these things are not uncommon and the pain from it all will get better. I know I could push through and run the marathon. But will it be 26.2 miles I’m proud of?
I doubt it. I’ll know that I’m not able to put my full effort into it. And, like Coach Tony said, I’ll probably be injured afterward. And I don’t want that. I want my first marathon to be a wonderful experience, not a slow shuffle toward a series of physical therapy appointments.
I have other races I want to run this year — smaller races, some medium, some 13.1s. I want to have fun, I want to feel good. I don’t want to hate running.
So, before I could change my mind, I e-mailed the race director on Friday and downgraded my NODM experience to the half marathon. (And, when I heard back, I found out I’m not the only one that is injured and had to downgrade, and even though I figured there were other people, having someone say it to me, made me feel even more relief. I’m not the only one!)
So, now I have to get ready for a half. I have no doubt I can run it, and obviously, I’m not looking to PR or anything. In fact, I just want to have fun. It’s supposed to be a beautiful course, so I’m planning to make it a photo trip. The last 5 miles are along the ocean, so get ready for a picture-heavy recap!
And speaking of race recaps, so many people are running races today — from 5Ks to 26.2 miles. I hope everyone has a great race and looking forward to the recaps!